John 15:12-13 (New International Version)
12My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Today I went for my big appointment at UWMC! I was nervous but excited at the same time! I figured that I would get a chance to see my baby today and was very excited about that but scared at the same time that we wouldn't find what we wanted. A healthy happy baby.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I only have one day left before my big appointment at the University of Washington Medical Center tomorrow. It has been a long two weeks but I know that God has been with me and the baby.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Today for the first time I actually heard the swoshing sound of the baby's heart beat! Before when I got the heart beat on the monitor, I did not hear the sound but only got the digital read out. This time it was the total opposite. I heard the sound but did not get the digital read out of the heart rate... but I tell you what.... hearing it's little heart beating is even better then seeing a number on the screen!
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Friday, May 22, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Our Fetal Doppler machine arrived in the mail on Monday afternoon. It's pink! :) I knew that it may not show me anything yet on Monday but I really really wanted to try it out! So what do I do? Of course I put it together, put the batteries in and the ultrasound gel on and started it up.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Honey our dog had a visitor today. My mom and dad came to help Chris dig out our garden today and spray weed killer on spots while I stayed inside on the couch with the two dogs. Ours and theirs.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I am so happy and so thankful to God for what He has done in our little miracles life! It is amazing!!! It is a blessing!!!! Today I had a follow up ultrasound after waiting almost 3 weeks. I was very nervous but I knew that God was there with me. I had a good time of worship last night and just felt safe!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Lord God, I lay my baby in your hands right now and I ask that you continue the miracle you have begun. Keep this little one safe. Form it completely and in your perfect way. God, you know I like to be in charge. I know though that right now I must give all my control over to you. Lord you are the author and perfecter of life. In you I live and breath and have my being. Keep my eyes focused on you and help me stand in faith for this little one. It is with your grace and mercy that this little one will be a testament to you Lord God. It has overcome so much so far, please Lord be with my little one and help us to receive good news from the doctors on Thursday. Amen!
Matthew 9:21-23 (NIV)
21She said to herself, "If I only touch his cloak, I will be healed."
22Jesus turned and saw her. "Take heart, daughter," he said, "your faith has healed you." And the woman was healed from that moment.
Psalm 18 (NIV)
For the director of music. Of David the servant of the LORD. He sang to the LORD the words of this song when the LORD delivered him from the hand of all his enemies and from the hand of Saul. He said:1 I love you, O LORD, my strength.
2 The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.
He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
3 I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise,
and I am saved from my enemies.
4 The cords of death entangled me;
the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me.
5 The cords of the grave coiled around me;
the snares of death confronted me.
6 In my distress I called to the LORD;
I cried to my God for help.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came before him, into his ears.
7 The earth trembled and quaked,
and the foundations of the mountains shook;
they trembled because he was angry.
8 Smoke rose from his nostrils;
consuming fire came from his mouth,
burning coals blazed out of it.
9 He parted the heavens and came down;
dark clouds were under his feet.
10 He mounted the cherubim and flew;
he soared on the wings of the wind.
11 He made darkness his covering, his canopy around him—
the dark rain clouds of the sky.
12 Out of the brightness of his presence clouds advanced,
with hailstones and bolts of lightning.
13 The LORD thundered from heaven;
the voice of the Most High resounded.
14 He shot his arrows and scattered the enemies ,
great bolts of lightning and routed them.
15 The valleys of the sea were exposed
and the foundations of the earth laid bare
at your rebuke, O LORD,
at the blast of breath from your nostrils.
16 He reached down from on high and took hold of me;
he drew me out of deep waters.
17 He rescued me from my powerful enemy,
from my foes, who were too strong for me.
18 They confronted me in the day of my disaster,
but the LORD was my support.
19 He brought me out into a spacious place;
he rescued me because he delighted in me.
20 The LORD has dealt with me according to my righteousness;
according to the cleanness of my hands he has rewarded me.
21 For I have kept the ways of the LORD;
I have not done evil by turning from my God.
22 All his laws are before me;
I have not turned away from his decrees.
23 I have been blameless before him
and have kept myself from sin.
24 The LORD has rewarded me according to my righteousness,
according to the cleanness of my hands in his sight.
25 To the faithful you show yourself faithful,
to the blameless you show yourself blameless,
26 to the pure you show yourself pure,
but to the crooked you show yourself shrewd.
27 You save the humble
but bring low those whose eyes are haughty.
28 You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning;
my God turns my darkness into light.
29 With your help I can advance against a troop ;
with my God I can scale a wall.
30 As for God, his way is perfect;
the word of the LORD is flawless.
He is a shield
for all who take refuge in him.
31 For who is God besides the LORD ?
And who is the Rock except our God?
32 It is God who arms me with strength
and makes my way perfect.
33 He makes my feet like the feet of a deer;
he enables me to stand on the heights.
34 He trains my hands for battle;
my arms can bend a bow of bronze.
35 You give me your shield of victory,
and your right hand sustains me;
you stoop down to make me great.
36 You broaden the path beneath me,
so that my ankles do not turn.
37 I pursued my enemies and overtook them;
I did not turn back till they were destroyed.
38 I crushed them so that they could not rise;
they fell beneath my feet.
39 You armed me with strength for battle;
you made my adversaries bow at my feet.
40 You made my enemies turn their backs in flight,
and I destroyed my foes.
41 They cried for help, but there was no one to save them—
to the LORD, but he did not answer.
42 I beat them as fine as dust borne on the wind;
I poured them out like mud in the streets.
43 You have delivered me from the attacks of the people;
you have made me the head of nations;
people I did not know are subject to me.
44 As soon as they hear me, they obey me;
foreigners cringe before me.
45 They all lose heart;
they come trembling from their strongholds.
46 The LORD lives! Praise be to my Rock!
Exalted be God my Savior!
47 He is the God who avenges me,
who subdues nations under me,
48 who saves me from my enemies.
You exalted me above my foes;
from violent men you rescued me.
49 Therefore I will praise you among the nations, O LORD;
I will sing praises to your name.
50 He gives his king great victories;
he shows unfailing kindness to his anointed,
to David and his descendants forever.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
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Friday, May 8, 2009
Thursday, May 7, 2009
This is a little note of encouragement I wrote to some friends in a prayer group on Fertility Friends earlier today! It was something that summed up how I was feeling today so I decided to write it here as well. Before I began to read the word today and before I wrote this I was having a hard day. Worrying about miscarriage and concerned about the baby's health. Instead of dwelling on the negative I decided it was time to take some action and be positive!
Today I was in the need of some spiritual encouragement to so I went to God's word to find some verses to post around the house and to place on my heart. One of the verses I found was this:
7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
8Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. 10And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. 11To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen. 1 Peter 5:7-11
In context this verse is actually talking to young men in leadership and the elders of the church but I think it fits our situation well too. You know when we stand in faith for our little miracles then satan gets angry and he looks to find ways to make us stubble and fall. So what does he do? He reminds us of loss and scares us into to thinking that this is happening again. Especially when it is not. He does not want us to rejoice in our precious little ones and for those who are still waiting for their precious miracles to start he does not want there to be faith to hold on to God's promises for miracles. He wants to keep us bound by our fears. Fears of loss, fears of not conceiving, and fear of everyday things.
Fear is one of the biggest tools of the enemy. A few years ago I taught a sermon series on how fear is the opposite of Love. We all know that God is Love.... and we all know that the author of fear is satan. We need to be so wrapped in God's love by faith through His grace that the fears of the enemy can not consume us any more.
I am a big one to talk... I have been having trouble with fear ever since I thought the baby was gone in Florida. The enemy whispered lies to me and tried to keep me bound. But I am so fired up right now that I have the boldness and strength to say "NO MORE!!!" No more fear, no more lies of the enemy no more being bound by confusion. It is time that I stepped out in faith declaring the word of the Lord rather then repeating the lies of the enemy! Woooo! I am so excited.... I just don't know what else to do but Praise God for breaking those chains!!!!
I feel like just by writing these things down that there is new hope and fresh fire in my life! For so long I kept repeating that God had not given me a spirit of fear. That was good because I was declaring the word of God over my life.... but it wasn't enough to break free.
I needed to see the lies of the enemy for what they were. I needed to be reminded that even though the enemy can roar... he is a toothless lion that can not devour me if I do not let him. Thank you Jesus! For being the true Lion... that we can lean on. Thank you Jesus for being the Lion of the Tribe of Judah! Thank you Jesus for taking those keys away from that toothless lion and helping us to overcome death and fear!
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. James 4:7
This too is such an important verse to hold on to when the enemy comes at us with lies. It says if we resist him he must flee. Praise God! Now this verse in context is talking about us all being sinners and needing to be purified by God in our hearts an minds. So when we seek forgiveness and are living in repentance we have the power to resist the enemy and make him flee from us! That is so good! God is so good! It is by God's grace that we are able to stand against the plans of the enemy!
Lord God, I come to you right now in the name of Jesus Christ your son. Lord God, pray that you will bind the enemy and his lies from all the lives of the women on this board. What ever satan is trying to roar in to the lives of these women cut it off right now! Lord bind satan and keep him far from these women. Lord I ask right now that you send your Holy Spirit to minister to each one. Where ever they are in this process Lord God, be with them! Hold them in your hands and keep them safe from the plans of the enemy! Lord I know that you have good plans for each and every one and that you Oh Lord long to grant the desires of their hearts. Lord we that you that if we resist the enemy that he must flee. Lord I pray that each one has your strength and your faith and your hope to resist the enemy today and to stand strong and bold in their faith. Lord let each one be filled with your river of life that will flow through them unto others in their lives as well. Lord I thank you that your mercies are new every morning. Help me to remember what you have showed me today, tomorrow as I wake. Do not let the fear come back into my life, but help me to stand strong in faith each day! Lord I thank you for each miracle you have brought into this group. Lord I pray that you protect each one and help them grow up happy and healthy. Lord for those who have not yet received the news of their precious miracles I pray that you will work swiftly in their lives to grant the desires of their hearts. Lord for those who are not trying right now I pray that you be with them and lead and guide them in what ever they are doing to glorify you in their lives. In thy name I pray, Amen!
I hope that this will be a good reminder for all of us on how we can defeat the enemy's plans in our lives and how we can live in victory in Jesus!
With God we will gain the victory, and he will trample down our enemies. Psalm 60:12
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.
2 Let Israel say: "His love endures forever."
3 Let the house of Aaron say: "His love endures forever."
4 Let those who fear the LORD say: "His love endures forever."
5 In my anguish I cried to the LORD, and he answered by setting me free.
6 The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?
7 The LORD is with me; he is my helper. I will look in triumph on my enemies.
8 It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in man.
9 It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in princes.
10 All the nations surrounded me, but in the name of the LORD I cut them off.
11 They surrounded me on every side, but in the name of the LORD I cut them off.
12 They swarmed around me like bees, but they died out as quickly as burning thorns; in the name of the LORD I cut them off.
13 I was pushed back and about to fall, but the LORD helped me.
14 The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation.
15 Shouts of joy and victory resound in the tents of the righteous: "The LORD's right hand has done mighty things!
16 The LORD's right hand is lifted high; the LORD's right hand has done mighty things!"
17 I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the LORD has done.
18 The LORD has chastened me severely, but he has not given me over to death.
19 Open for me the gates of righteousness; I will enter and give thanks to the LORD.
20 This is the gate of the LORD through which the righteous may enter.
21 I will give you thanks, for you answered me; you have become my salvation.
22 The stone the builders rejected has become the capstone;
23 the LORD has done this, and it is marvelous in our eyes.
24 This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.
25 O LORD, save us; O LORD, grant us success.
26 Blessed is he who comes in the name of the LORD. From the house of the LORD we bless you.
27 The LORD is God, and he has made his light shine upon us. With boughs in hand, join in the festal procession up to the horns of the altar.
28 You are my God, and I will give you thanks; you are my God, and I will exalt you.
29 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.
1 Corinthians 15:56-58
56The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. 57But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
58Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.
Philippians 3:14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus!
Keep standing strong! Keep fighting! Keep pressing on in Jesus!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Yesterday was the 6 month anniversary of the birth and death of our precious little Baby Nels who only lived one hour due to his PUV. I missed him so much yesterday and would have liked to have gone to his grave site to take him flowers but alas.... no I was stuck on the couch.